January 2011
8 posts
the best thing about a picture is it never speaks,
I’d dream about you if I could ever sleep,
how do you? After the hell you put me through?
I’m not spiteful, I’m just saying its bull.
You really aughta not be doing so well,
you really aughta not be doing so well.
sometimes I look in the mirror and don’t recognize who I see.
and every day I bid these wounded eyes to see, remember remember your suffering is nothing but a dream.
I’m going to start screenprinting shirts again this year.
my hans tremble and shake with your every breath,
and for the first time, in the longest time,
I’m not thinking of death.
December 2010
9 posts
I bid this river run swell ‘till the banks are overcome and in the deluge and the flood keep my voice from shaking. but the water isn’t deep just a muddy bank of a stream and though I know I can’t be asleep I feel like I’m dreaming. what god would paint this life smokey black and pallid white a negative held up to the light what am I exposing?
“I’m a scorpion; it’s my nature.”
– unknown
I used to fear writing about love. I feared not doing it justice, and in writing it poorly, render it a weak and fragile thing, that no one would believe. But then I fell in love. I fell in love and love hurt. Love rendered me a weak and fragile thing, but it was beautiful, it was what made life worth living, it was more than I ever would have believed. Now I don’t fear writing about...
I just went from 6 to 15 credits for next semester.
Hello:
Beginning Drama Workshop
Shakespeare - Tragedies & Romances
Special Topics in Film - Action Cinema
In addition to:
Special Topic in Film - Avant-Garde Cinema
Film Making I
And I should still be able to work a couple of days a week and have time for making music.
November 2010
18 posts
Dear Montclair State University,
My name is Patrick, I’m a Junior who transferred into your school with a very clear objective as to what I would like to accomplish and study during my time spent in your educational facilities. So I ask you this, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU BEND OVER BACKWARDS TO FUCK MY SHIT UP?! I am now only registered for two classes because you (A) put a hold on my...
My week:
Monday
skip Modern American Fiction
write Film Exam paper
go to film
go to french
go to band practice
get home and in bed before 1am
Tuesday
Urban training 10-2
early dinner with mum & aunt
fuck all
get to bed before 1am
Wednesday
bide my time before… work at Urban 9-1
go to Creative Non-fiction and present my paper
proceed to die from said presentation
get to...
Do I make you happy? Do I make you sad? If I made you feel anything, it wouldn’t be this bad.
: I don’t want to be part of a bullshit... →
trookey:
I don’t want to be part of a bullshit institution that would rather send their students through some cookie-cutter mold of curriculum than invest in the unique strengths and passions of individuals. Ayn Rand was right in this sense. It is individuals who will change the world.
I don’t want to…
archeology
some times you see someone from a distance and then realize it isnt them. some times you hear a song and it reminds you of that one time that was awesome when you were listening to it. some times you smell a sent that so strongly carries a memory for a moment you are transported there. and some times you stumble on a photo you weren’t looking for and your heart skips a beat and stays up...
how much does a heavy heart weigh?
you knew the words but couldn’t bring yourself to say.
the sky is falling and no one sees.
the sky is falling inside of me.
Its completely acceptable for an eating establishment to sporadically close early during the week. And I am never sarcastic.
to narrate the distance between our whispered greetings, and shouted goodbyes, I surmise I’d summarize the anger in your stair, and how you held me like a dying stranger, but couldn’t bring yourself to care.
Cute boy I saw the other day in the cafe with brown hair and blue eyes, come say hello to me, I would like to get to know if I would like to get to know you.
So if you read my previous post, which song do you think I should cover? Mercy, President, or Fade into You?
My goal for 2011
So I’m planning on releasing an album this summer. I’m aiming for seven or eight tracks, the last of which is going to be a cover. The songs I’m deciding between are IAMX’s “Mercy” or “President” (either done in an acoustic style for cohesion’s sake) and Mazzy Star’s “Fade into You” (maybe just on piano instead of guitar).
...
Never forgive is that what they meant, when they told us we better never forget.
October 2010
27 posts
and he says just drive, get me away from here, I don’t care how far, just make the coastline disappear..
some things about me
I draw things on paper and then make pretty on computer. I like puppies. I also like cats. I drink tea daily. I hate going to bed. but I love sleeping. Nothing in life makes me as happy as singing. in the car with my friends most of all. I think making mix-tapes is an art form. I like videogames. I love the taste of cinnamon. I’m cynical and sarcastic. but I am a romantic. I’m a...
Curiosities: Drawn By Different Artists →
win
I am an asshole
Because I take no small amount of comfort from looking at recent pictures of my past exs and seeing what they’ve become. Because in doing so I get a level of closure. I am an asshole. But I can’t say you don’t deserve it.
